Such is Life

Intro you guys to a nice nice song. Especially the MTV, a must see! my eyes were all welled up, it’s just such a sweet and cute MTV.

My Idea of Heaven, by Leigh Nash.

You can hear the song on my profile. It’s a rather simple and sweet song. Perhaps it reflects me as well…

On a side note. I was thinking of joining cai hua heng yi. hahaa.. perhaps not, since I’m at home blogging currently. hahaa. I think I’m too big sized for acting.. some times I wished I’d be smaller.. then I’d look better on TV and such. anyway, perhaps if I ever get smaller, I’ll try for TV, if not, I’d better get better at what I’m studying and perhaps working too.

Even if I lost weight… what are the chances that I’ll be like a really popular star? hm.. I duno. I’m not as pretty as alot of people out there, but it’s really what I want to do I guess.. ^_^ I’ll just have to try harder!

Sometimes looking at my friends, I find that I really haven’t changed much. People around me are growing up, changing, some for better, some for worse, but I don’t seem to feel that I’ve changed much at all.

I’m not sure if it’s a good thing or a bad thing, but I do like the way I am and use to be. If given a choice, I guess I wouldn’t really want to change too drastically as well.

Of coz there are periods of times where I was influenced by my surrounding people and happenings, and there are periods where I changed myself in hopes of understanding more about other people. But I must say that they never seem like good ideas after awhile. Some say, to understand another, you’ll have to live with him or live like him. I think it’s a good advice only if it’s a good thing that the other does. Otherwise, one will just be changing to be something worse.

Having said so, I must admit that differentiating between good and bad may not be that obvious when you are in it yourself. I’m ofcoz not talking about stealing and killing, in which case, even the lather is arguably a good thing if there was a good reason for it. Some times I feel that good and bad is really dependent on one’s way of life. If freedom is deemed as "good" for one, then usually he will think that freedom is good for everyone. But if the other likes stability more, and thinks stability is the "good", then things will get complicated between the two if they ever meet.

I’m not sure if I’m making a lot of sense to you. but ultimately, I think one should not impose his/her own values onto someone else. I believe in understanding and solving problems. Don’t change yourself just to accomodate to another, or change your own values too easily, or else it’ll just cause unhappiness to yourself as well as the people who are around you.

No absolute right, no absolute wrong. But what is right to you, should remain right, and wrong remain wrong. Don’t do what you think is wrong, until you feel that things have changed and you have changed, then don’t force things in anyway. Just go with the flow.

I’m designing my own room and some of my furniture. Finally my room is looking more like something I like.

I’ve repainted the walls and moved my current furniture around. I’ll be getting a built in wardrobe and some new shelving space as well! A great lot of things will be changed/added. I’m so excited. I can’t wait for the room to be finally done! hahaa.. perhaps I’ll have like a room warming mini slumber party in my room when it’s all done.

Any one interested? I’ll provide free booze! (just make sure you don’t get drunk, afterall it’s not a chalet.)

Msg me or something ya~

Anyway, but things are progressing a little behind schedule.initial plan was to have everything done by.. Now acually.. But I guess the wardrobe will only be up earliest next week. and I have no idea when will the shelvings be done. In any case, I’m sure my room will be nice and cozy when it’s all done. ^_^ and probably tidy as well.. atleast for the slumber party.

Cheerio~!

Oh my, my Professional Attachment will be starting next monday! I’m so excited actually.. Although the place is very far, it also look like a very nice place to be working in. I went to check out the place yesterday.. though it was a grueling 1.5hr trip just to get there, the place looked rather friendly having people in smart casual instead of formal attire. the only problem now is that, I have to report to work by 8am. *faint* which means I’ll probably have to leave home by about 6am.. which translates to waking up at 5.30? feels like I’m back to my primary school days where I’ll have to wake up super early so as to get the school bus.

oh well.. I do hope they will be nice enough to let me have a later start time or give me some sort of transport allowance. or raise my pay.. /._.\

anyway, Life has been pretty good. Everything seems to be just falling into place by itself, and all that I worried for have proven to be just empty worries. and so, I’m happy.

I made a lot.. and I mean A LOT of dumplings the past few days.. it all starting with this piece of raw fish that I found in the fridge. I thought of cooking it.. but it was rather fishy by itself.. and so I thought of mixing it with meat to make dumplings.. so end up, I bought meat, and veg and made 3 different types of fillings for my dumplings.. I kindda bought too much meat to start with, and with all the veg added, and egg and other ingredients.. I ended up having 3 rather big bowls of fillings and only 1 pack of dumpling skin. made like a whole lot of dumplings though.. I think one pack is about 40-50 pieces of skin, I tried to make as many as I can to use up the filling.. but I’m still left with one big bowl. so I bought more dumpling skin and.. well.. I’ll be making more dumplings! hahaa..

The good thing is that, they can be left in the freezer and then just take it out to cook when you feel like eating. it’s rather nice that way. coz I can make as much as I can and it means I won’t have to worry about going hungry at home any more! my mom says it’s good, and I can sell them if I want to. hahaa.. ANYONE wants to buy? Just tell/msg me ya? I’ve got cabbage, jiu cai, and water chestnut ones..

Boo hoo.. I’m down with flu.

and then again, there’s the exams..

I’ll be dead anyway… either from flu or from the papers.. hahaa

Been really ill the past few days.. I wonder how many trees sacrificed for my nose blowing pleasure. Ahh…. feels good to have a clear, breathing nose that is not dripping with goo.. but

the pleasure only lasts for so long…
and then I’m left in ruldof form.
I wonder if I can just tag my nose,
and pull it off for a better blow.

I wonder if any one misses me every now and then.. Some times I like being missed.. by girls mainly.. unless the boy really mean just missing me instead of like trying to woo me or something. I miss people quite a lot. Miss times spent with alot of people. Miss my working days in NETS wth CY, Miss fishing at the cannel with DW, miss cycling and swimming with Olli, Miss clubbing and dancing with my friends… miss just walking around in the middle of the night. miss riding around singapore. So many people and events. I wonder if any one thinks of me the way I think of them. hmm..

Well, my friends, just to let you know ya~! I MISS YOU!!!

Smiling can be the sweetest yet the most painful thing to do sometimes.

Boo! I wonder if I know the way to marijuana. seems like a lot of my friends have tried it before. hahaa… don’t bother.

very random today… not enough sleep.

School is starting soon.. like… 5days’ time. Thinking of someone who taught me how to use the  (’) when there are and aren’t the (s). some influencial people of my life.

Short and sweet life so far. as it gets longer.. it seems to be getting more bitter.. hm..

maybe I should go back to sleep… but I want to ssun my pillow and stuff… problem is… no sun…. then that leads me to not feel like sleeping coz the pillows are still not sunned.. so confusing and bothersome. should I sleep or not? or maybe I should sleep in my parents’ room. hahaaa….

Not the most intelligent today.

Weeeeeee………. *Randomly screaming* Ahhhhhhh……………… think my brain just seized to work. ops. duh duh…. oooooo…… *dig nose* hahaaa~~ retarded baby..

perhaps being a retard isn’t that bad after all… so smart for what?! *ah lian style* eh.. smart also lai tat, not smart oso lai tat… got diff meh? hahaaaaaaaaa

Think I really left my brains somewhere…. I’d have gone looking for it.. if only I can think of where I left it.. ahhaaa. sad. ops.

Happy new year everyone!!!!!!!! bleah~!

Seems like a polar bear visited.

oh well..

Spent the day nua-ing at home.. ordered oishi pizza and had baileys kahlua milk which I mixed myself. quite good. if anyone wants to order oishi pizza. I’d say I recommend the curry chicken, and don’t listen to the recommendations of the oishi people. hahaa.. coz I’ve tried them twice, and they give sucky recommendations.

just woke up.

No regrets.

hahaa.. that has been all I could reply to people since yesterday after my test.

I failed..

so sad.

hahaa… now alittle better already. but still… I can drive one loh.. just damn suay and test nervous I think. and my points got deducted for no good reason also…. and a stupid motor tried to ram into me… like for fun or something… he actually sped up when he saw that I was going to turn.. like.. you so kan jiong for what? hahaa.. then my tester jammed the brake.. direct failure. haiz..

suah. I’ll be trying again in march.

I’m now in my parents’ factory. Just finished helping out. hahaa.. so now I’m using the computer to just type some rubbish.

It’s pretty fun, I do kindda like coming here. Not long termly I guess, but it’s always fun to just come here to help out a little and just see how things are going. I must admit, it has been a pretty long while since I last came to help. And everytime I come, it gave me a surprise.. not excluding this time.

Times are really moving fast, even for a small, medium business. I guess even more so for small, medium businesses. It’s kindda fulfilling for me when I see that the business is doing well some how. I do like the idea that my parents are doing well.

Which is actually quite weird. coz in some sense, it doesn’t really affect me whether or not my parents do well.. coz I don’t really get my allowances from them anymore. I guess it’s just the feeling that someone close to me is doing well, that makes me happy I guess.

Back to talking about the factory.

Did like packing and stuff… It’s fun. But my finger is hurting.. I particularly dislike having to wrap the ‘heads’ of the bottles.. it is always painful. and then again. most of the job here will require you to have some kind of pain and/or ache during/after the task. Which brings me to the next reason why I like to come and help out.

It’s really pretty good work out when I come here. I get to move my arms and legs and back. moving things around, bending over.. * hehee*

Some other updates in my minutely insignificant life. I’m going to take my driving test TMR!!!! kindda excited.. which isn’t really a good thing.. coz I couldn’t really sleep last night.. I don’t know why.. I think it’s partly due to the adrenaline rush caused by the thought of my driving test being so near.

I’m pretty good at driving now. Just an occasional lost of focus and concentration either due to lack of sleep, or cold. hahaa.. so better rest well and make sure I’m not sick tomorrow.

later I’ll be going for my 2nd circuit session. The 1st one went well.. So I believe I should be fine. Just need a little more practice and confidence I guess!!

Okie.. Going to take a rest before leaving for my lesson. you’ll know if I did well tmr!

Nothing is all that real online. coz people can post what they want, when they want, as they want. words are just words, and thoughts are just thoughts. A certain degree of truth is present most of the time.. but it’s really abstract. More like the idea behind what is presented.

But ofcoz.. some times… it’s pure rubbish. hahaa… how much to believe in the internet.. and me for that matter.. is up to the individual I guess..